Shame is keeping me in this hell on earth !!!?

Hi everyone , i used to be someone , very popular , great personality but one day that all ended and severe social anxiety came into my life , that was 7 years ago and im still room-bound . The thing is if i could stop avoiding anxiety-provoking situations my anxiety would leave my tortured soul but i cant seem to do this , for me im not afraid of my anxiety or any of its symptoms but its the way my anxiety makes me act , all shify and on edge , find it really hard to make eye-contact with people , its like this every waking moment of my pitiful life , family included , i just cant take the looks i get from people and being near humiliated every time i leave my prison , i fear im going to have to kill myself if i cant be free of this , i wish i knew some way of losing my pride , its crazy that i still have any left , why live if its going to be like this everyday of my life , i feel i have so much to offer this world , i just cant get past this , ive tried medications and they dont really help and the ones that do are really addictive , pls help , Robbie ???